Mianne

[Filter: Halster]

Hey.

I've been doing a lot of thinking. So I might ramble a bit and maybe I'll forget things and have to add them in and it will seem really out of order but just bear with me, okay?

I know you'll say yes.

Right. I've been...I've been scared of commitment for so long that I don't even know why anymore. It probably started out for a good reason, maybe I was too young and didn't trust myself, plus Grandpa never liked you but...I don't think that really applies anymore. So I've been really thinking about that. And other stuff but mostly that. And I think that maybe I'm just doing it out of habit. If that makes sense. But I really think it does. I'm so used to questioning everything that I just can't not do it anymore.

Um, okay...

That's not the only thing but it is the big one. And it's something we need to talk about more.

Actually, I think we sort of need to be able to talk about everything more.

[Filter: Col]

Sorry for taking so long. I talked to Grandpa and he says we could use someone to help with stocking and keeping an eye on the inventory and stuff like that. So if you're still interested, you have a job.

[Filter: Ann Private]

No. If I can't talk to him about this then that's probably the biggest problem.

[Filter: Halster]

Hey...

[Filter: Halster]

Hey...are you free tomorrow night, by any chance?

[Filter: Private]

Would he do that? I don't know. I want to say no, but...

I don't know.

[Filter: Annie]

I need some advice and well...I don't really know who else to ask, even though I'm not sure I'm going to like what you tell me. I guess I just need you to remember that I'm not you and take that into account? I don't know.

[Filter: Private]

I...

I just don't know what to do about that. It's one of the last big steps and it just brings everything back and...

I don't know, Halster...

I'm sorry.

[Filter: Halster]

So, it's almost been a month now. Enjoying having one of these things again?~

This talk of birthdays has got me thinking, since mine is pretty soon. And it's a fairly big one, at least that's what I'm led to believe. No more teenage angst for me~ Soon it will be all problems of the adult variety.

Not that I really think things will magically change, of course. That doesn't really ever happen, so...yeah~ Just something to think about.

[Filter: Lenore and Eri]

Your grandparents are doing very well. They both send their love and are eagerly awaiting the letter Lenore promised.

I can't wait until we can finally stop importing all our produce. Shipments are always late and some of the merchants are just unpleasant.

Oh and these boxes haven't gotten any lighter. I might need to see if I can borrow Halster from the army for a day or two, to give my arms a break~

I am definitely glad the Rose Day insanity is over. Grandpa went with the idea I had to sell some flowers here as well as food and it definitely went well. Eri and Lenore, you may have some competition when you get back!~ Though definitely only once a year, because flowers are actually a lot messier than you'd expect. I keep finding petals all over the place.

It was crazy busy though. And then I had to rush home and cook my own meals. So yeah, exciting but also exhausting. I could have slept until noon the next day.

Okay, I asked Grandpa about that kite. It actually was a bit more bat shaped then I thought. He said it looked a bit like this

And then there was a piece underneath it that hung down for the string to attach to.

Oops, looks like we missed Wednesday this week. But Sunday is a pretty good day too, I think.

Okay, well, we've had a lot of favourite things, so how about a least favourite. What is your least favourite food? Mine is peas. I've just never liked them, even when I was a baby. I would just sit there, squishing them on my plate until my parents finally gave up and took them away.

[Filter: Private]

Sometimes I wonder what it would have been like if I went with them. Not that I was ever really invited, but I don't think they would have said no. But of course, I don't think I would ever have said yes.

And that's okay. It really is. But sometimes I just really miss them. Which is funny, since I really haven't known them for that long anyway. But before that, there was Halster...before he was anything else, he was my friend. I saw him every day.

I miss that.

My poor hands, they'll never be the same again~

But I finally finished making Halster his socks. I'm not sure if they out ugly last's years, but it's pretty close. Stripes of dark grey, swamp water green, and orange. There always has to be orange, it clashes with everything else so nicely~

One of these years, I'm going to remember to start these earlier. Really!

It's almost Nana's birthday. Grandpa and I always do something special for it, including closing the store which, trust me, doesn't happen very often. It's always a very fun day for just the two of us.

Not much else has been going on, really. Oh, someone tried to convince me to buy a horse the other day. He really picked the wrong person to ask that to~ But I did actually go and look at the thing, which made me pretty proud.

And then I got out of there as fast as I could~

[Filter: Annie, Eri, Lenore, Reiz, Ren]

Hey, what's going on with you guys? I haven't heard much other than it's raining and you need nickmans and that Eri is going to be okay, not that that last bit is anything little of course.

So yeah, everything's back to normal again, I guess. It's still crazy busy here, of course. And Halster's back off doing...whatever it is that the Hanalan army does. You know, I'm still not even sure exactly what that is. I'll give them the benefit of the doubt and assume that it's something important. Or at very least useful~

I seem to have gotten a bit older too.

[Filter: Private]

He's planning something. Of course he's planning something, he always does. It will be alright. It will be great fun, I'm sure. As long as he doesn't...



We've been at a standstill for so long. I realize that. But the next step scares me.

So, apparently I had forgotten what it was like having Halster around all the time. He really can be quite a nuisance~ But it's been nice too. Especially when there's heavy lifting involved.

But he keeps trying to get my out of the store. Which really isn't going to happen right now, because everyone has spring fever and wants to get good food, even though it's hardly spring at all. Some people just have no patience, not that I can blame them because who wouldn't want good, homegrown food, instead of the stuff we need to import during the winter. It never quite tastes the same.